From Hell's heart

i lost. because of laziness.

my fingers just don’t want to move. My eyes are still active as ever, spotting every single lazy mistake I made.

My fingers are literally numb from turning bolts day in… day out…
its like a built - in - self defense mechanism - if i get cut, I don’t even feel it. I don’t even bleed. the blood clotting cells are literally at very surface of my skin - like soldiers ready to prevent any blood loss in the battle field.

It never fades… its always there…like Krul’s sword in his chest.